Almost missed my exit; is that No Doubt on the side of a bus?! (Taken with Instagram)
My name is Evan Slead and I am a back of house specialist at the Irvine Spectrum store in Southern California; R146 to be exact.
Although I’ve only been an employee of Apple for close to two years now, the news of Steve’s passing was as heavy and moving as one would feel after losing a dear friend and loved one. I did not know Mr. Jobs personally, but I knew his heart and genius in not only the amazing products that he brought to the world, but the working environment that I have been so blessed to be a part of.
Working at Apple is more than just a job, its an invitation to take a seat at the biggest family table I’ve ever seen. On one side of me is a crazy, loud and charismatic person that loves to go on about the features of OSX; and on the other is a quiet, thoughtful and somewhat shy person carefully explaining the difference between an iPhone 3GS and an iPhone 4. The passion is displayed and presented in different ways but the amount is the same. And that’s what Apple is; a funny, crazy, eccentric, vastly extended family that continues to grow as the passion that Steve created spreads across the world. There is no weakness in our differences, no cookie-cutter example of a “right fit”. We are here because one man saw something common in all of us; an opportunity to connect boundaries and ultimately break them down. To be a part of this family is something that I will never take for granted ever again, and even when it is time for me to move forward to life’s next venture, I will never leave this family. It’s as much a part of me as the blood in my veins.
It was one man that created this worldwide community; and today he has left us. We bow our heads and feel the pain of the loss, but our hearts are still rising because as long as this family sticks together, there will be a little bit of Steve in all of us. There is a legacy and love behind this man that is not held down by the laws of life and death; it lives on and continues to grow with each day that we are all blessed to have.
So, to you Mr. Jobs, I want to say thank you. I will take each day as the gift that it is and continue to challenge myself and the rest of our Apple family. You were, and still are, a true visionary and leader of all us “crazy ones”. That’s a family that I will stand behind.
With my deepest love and thanks,
I always think it’s interesting to go back and reread something that you wrote years, or even just months beforehand. I used to write a lot of lyrics and during the process thought that they were pretty good; but then even a few days later I hated them because they were emotionally driven in an immature way. I used to write a lot of notes on Facebook and I’ve been going back and rereading them, and one kind of struck me as funny. We all grow continually (well, I’d like to think we do, but not everyone does, there are people I know that have stayed the same for a long time) and it’s interesting to look back on what you thought you knew. Usually you kind of laugh because you realize that you know better now, but to have a time where you look back and realize that you are missing what you had back then is pretty funny and sad at the same time. I was reading one of my notes and I got that feeling:
I hope and pray that all of you are enjoying your days and really seeking God and growth. What I’m writing about today is something that has been on my heart for awhile, since my baptism. I would like to share it with you all. It kind of culminates most of my notes into one.
Hope is the foundation to faith. Hope is literally a mindset, a positive mind if you will. To believe in Scripture and in God is the key to faith, but to really understand and enjoy life, we need to have hope.
We all have a purpose and a goal in life that God has set for us to reach, We must put our free wills in line with God’s will to reach that destination. And fyi, we will never reach that goal until we believe what we say and show it in all aspects of ourselves. I’ve talked about loving others and staying strong and never giving up. Today, I want to talk about our minds. The mind is where we really can do the most for our growth. Everything we do starts with the mind. A negative attitude, a negative mindset, is one that literally causes destruction. When a situation arises where it looks difficult and there’s no light at the end, a person with a negative mindset will begin to start doubting and throwing out all of these negative comments about it. This completely destroys their hope for the situation and usually does that to the others around them.
Let me just say this. If you’re a negative person that feels that putting people down and going to the negative outcome is an honest thing to do…well…shove it. Pardon me for being offensive, but I strongly feel that negative people are the saddest people out there and they don’t realize how much damage they do by just being around. I’m not saying that all negative people should stay alone, what I’m saying is grow up!! Not everything is always going to go your way, but guess what bud, it’s okay!! God has a different plan for us most of the time and sometimes it lines up, but usually it’s different! Do yourself a favor and stop being the bearer of bad news to everyone. Bring some light in with you! No one enjoys being around someone that’s always negative. And there are times in life when it seems like the outcome is going to be bad, but have hope, it’s never over until it’s over.
Alright, just had to say that.
Enough about negativity, I want to talk about how amazing hope is for us. God wants us to have all of our hope in Him. We need to have an attitude that reflects how we believe that God has our best interest in mind and that we truly strive toward the positive life. He promises us that He will deliver us to the purpose that He has made for us. He’s not going to forget about us and make a wrong move. But, we need to line ourselves up with Him. If we don’t we’ll make wrong decisions and lead our lives into wrong directions. The great thing about God is that He can always guide us back. He can change the lanes in our lives and make one giant road that will lead us to Him. So really, there’s no reason to be upset when life doesn’t go your way. Obviously it’s not what God had intended for you. And usually, He’s saving you from something that will hurt you in the long run.
When we face that mountain, don’t look at how big it is or how scared you are about it. If you fall while climbing, which you will, then keep going up. Don’t give up and throw your hands up in the air. Nothing is impossible with God. Just keep pushing ahead. When we focus on God, we have no other choice but to be positive. When you really see Him, you see joy and hope. Never despair and heartache.
This verse is absolutely amazing:
“Return to your fortress, you prisoners of hope; even now I announce that I will restore twice as much to you,” Zechariah 9: 12
God is our fortress, and in His prisons He holds hope. These prisons have no bars, no locks. Just places where we can rest; see and feel the hope that God gives us. Whenever you feel like becoming negative and giving up, climb that fortress and take a look down on your life from above. You can see all the cracks in the road that you may not have seen on ground level, from the world. Climb up with God who sees all from above. He’ll show you the way to travel and avoid all of those cracks that will lead you down.”
Today is another Monday. Technically, the way my schedule is, it is the first day of my weekend. I work from midweek through the weekends so that’s just how it all works.
I was thinking today how repetitive schedules can be, well, they kind of have to be hence them being called “schedules”. It’s interesting how a change in our schedule can become such a rock to our world. I’ve been feeling that lately, but in a deeper sense. My technical schedule is changing a bit here soon, just with summer classes starting, but that’s not really a HUGE deal to me. Going through so many years of college, you get used to changing school schedules.
What I mean when I say deeper sense is that internally and spiritually I feel like something is about to change. I don’t know how to explain the feeling at all or what it really means, but somehow I just KNOW that something is going to change. I’ve been praying about what this all means and obviously I don’t expect a clear answer right away. I feel that God is using this time to tell me to just leave it up to Him. So, even though I might feel a little on edge lately because of this itching feeling, in a sense I feel that God is giving me a great gift.
There are so many times in life that we have immense changes that come out of nowhere really, and it can be difficult. We never know when these times will happen; they just come. I think sometimes we get so wrapped in trying to figure everything out and wanting God to answer our prayers with an audible explanation. Something tangible. But I’m thankful because this little feeling I have feels like the Holy Spirit just getting me prepared, so that I know if anything happens then it’s in His hands. I know that all things are in His hands, but it still helps to know, He has me handled.